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 Take the Eliteness Quiz Today! Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 12:14 a.m. on Tuesday, January 22, 2002 I don't want to go to school tomorrow! I don't want to live with other people . . . both of whom suck and are back. >_< I took a billion or so online tests, watched the end of Initial D First Stage today, finished off the NY arc in Kodocha, drew an oekaki, and watched the 2nd Daria movie (*heart* I love that show! ^_^) today. Oh, and felt VERY ill for a bit. Gehhhhh . . . I thought the girls were going to call me but they didn't, so I called them . . . even though I didn't particularly feel like getting together . . . but then they were going to call me back and they didn't, which makes me feel rather, um, unwanted? Yuck. I can't eat my cake and have it too, I suppose. >_< But I basically did nothing productive on the one day I could have. On the up-side, the oekaki pic isn't bad, it's Misty from Pokemon in muted tones (not her regular ones) and I was trying to approximate a sepia color for the background, but that didn't really, erm, work. I actually started out trying to draw the girl from Tin-sama's Love Letters but that didn't really work since she muted into Misty when I was experimenting with hair . . . so I just left it. I have this image of the girl, though, that just won't go away . . . So I think I shall draw her if I get the chance. Also on the up-side the movie was excellent (but I'm sad the show is over >_< - I'm going to miss that biting humour and not-quite monotone voice) and I got to watch the whole thing. The anime was good too and I really got into IniD (Duh!), and, this is lame, but the tension in the last few episodes was getting to me despite the fact that you pretty much know who's going to win. ^^; Oooh, and the music is soooo good! LOL. My next blog layout may have a verse or two from the second ending song . . . Which reminds me, I was going to make a new pic for my blog today, but I couldn't find any pictures that would suit. Oooh, and I left my new Argent Soma pencil board in LA. But that was going to be scanned in for the AS website I'm making . . . eventually. I was so happy to find it! The writing on the back is in GOOD English which makes it absolutely priceless. ^____^ Ummmm, where was this going? Oh, yes, I really like Merritt's and Gina's new pics! Go check them out! Ho-hum, anything else?
I don't want to go to school? *Sigh* No matter how many times I take it I always get Ferio as #1. >_< The rest of the line up changes but it's always Ferio first. And didn't I get him as my #1 Clamp guy? -_-;;
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#2 Heero Yuy - Gundam Wing
# 23
Gene Starwind - Outlaw Star
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Jet Black - Cowboy Bebop Hmmm, okey?
 This is the only response to this test that I've ever seen, I think:
 You will marry LEGOLAS from Lord of the Rings, live in an ancient elven palace in the middle of the forest, and spend your days walking on top of snow and rowing ivory boats and just being beautiful. What's YOUR M * A * S * H future? Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 10:25 p.m. on Monday, January 21, 2002
Go Faeries!! Take the What Faery Are You? Quiz! This quiz was made by lia Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 04:39 p.m. on Monday, January 21, 2002
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# 2 Irvine Kinneas
That's an improvement, I guess . . . since in a different test I was Quistis. O_o;; Gina comes back today! Yay! But then, so does apaato mate b. >_< And A got back yesterday and was here when I got back last night . . . which just basically ruined today from the get-go. *Sigh* I wish they would grow up and not be so damn juvenile . . . No more snide comments about my mother either, damn you! Grrrrrrrr!!!!!
The Chobits anime series is starting on April 2. The new Digimon series is Digimon Frontier. I'm exhausted right now and I was too exhausted last night/morning to even update my 'fic pitas with the news that a completed version of "IAL:GB" Episode Two is up on my page. Thought I'd note that. ZZZZZZZZ . . . Back in Berkeley. Got to the airport four hours early and got back, unpacked, hung out with the girls, etc. Soooooooo tired! More tomorrow. Hopefully awake then. Bye-bye for now.
Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 04:01 a.m. on Friday, January 18, 2002
And why is it that these things must always hit in the shower or in this case at 2:30 in the morning? Well, I've come to some realizations about myself . . . 1) I dream big and I honestly intend to carry out my convictions and promises, but in truth I'm weaker than I'd like to think. I lack direction and somewhere along the way my motivation and desire to learn/strive/achieve left me. 2) I can't bloody well go to bed before 3 in the morning. 3) I'd like to think that I'm not superficial, but I've always known that I'm a rather shallow person, lacking in depth. Oh, I have layers but for the most part what you see is what you get. I'm uncomplicated, a bit simple, very readable, and easily manipulated. Some of these things are flaws. 4) Well, I've always been 90-100% in touch with my emotions. I've never tried to hide unpleasant truths from myself or lie to myself in any way . . . and even when I *do* lie to myself, I *know* I'm doing it. 5) I'm not a social critter. I'm someone who shies away from people and social interaction. On the other hand, I *can* be very social . . . but I am apt to get very tired of it very quickly. This is not true of me with everyone and those of you whom I genuinely feel at ease with are most likely reading this log, because those whom I'm not as emotionally connected with, I must admit, do not know of its existence. 6) I get hurt very easily. I haven't a very thick shell at all. As a character of mine once and will say with a different set of words: "I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of being used. I'm tired of being everyone's walking mat. Thanks, come again." So when things hurt me, they hurt me deeply and for a long time. Another character of mine says it better than I can right now, but I won't quote her because that's spoiler material. ^^; Hey, Seika. (Readers of IAL may note this entry.) 7) I have my obsessions, and they are not as many as they seem, and they more or less last forever or so . . . Some may die quiet deaths. Some, more painful ones. 8) I have rotten taste in men. For the record. And yes, this cuts both ways. 9) I'm not prepared for the real world. I've lead a very sheltered life, have had absolutely no interest in the world around me, and to tell the truth, still don't really - which only goes to show what a selfish little self-centered brat I am. I am going to try and keep in touch with the world. I might be an island, but the tide still rushes in. 10) I need to broaden my horizons. My limited interests and lack of personality have contributed to my social isolation and inadequacies. And I'm sick of finding myself boring. 11) It's really, really sad when your mother tells you that you need to find more friends because it's pathetic that you're going to go through college with only five. (Untrue, untrue. And she doesn't know about online ones, most of whom I've lost touch with . . . granted. And I don't know if knowing would make her feel better or worse. But the ones I have and whom I can truly call my friends, I really, truly, cherish them *so* much.) Of course, I realize now that while I blew that comment off, I really shouldn't have . . . because it's *true*. I'm not saying having a small number of close friends is bad, I actually think it's better, but when you have *NO* desire to return phone calls or talk to the vast majority of these so-called friends in college, something is definitely NOT right. While I'm there, it's fine, but granted, there *IS* so much back-stabbing and scandal and drama and all I know is that's its all revolving outside of me and I'm just pulled every which way. Plus, *so* many people are going abroad or going to be gone next year . . . and I was actually relieved! I said to myself, "Oh, I can hang out with Gina. And write, and watch anime, and have time to myself." Then I realized that, I really have to go out and meet new people . . . because as self-sufficient and hermit-like as I would like to be . . . I really can't survive all on my own. If I'm lonely sometimes in a crowd . . . how lonely will I be without one? 12) Learned from observation/vicarious living/other:
i. NEVER cheat on a boyfriend, if you get to the point where you are tempted to do so there is something WRONG and you either have to work it out with your boyfriend or break up. Period. Don't do something you'll regret. 13) I shouldn't let schoolwork take over and drain the fun out of my life. I have to make time for ME, real time, not just stolen time. It's important to have a life and live it fully. I have to learn to take things in stride. 14) I have to go to bed earlier. Sleep is good. 15) I have to learn to listen to myself. If I give good advice, I ought to follow it. If I can't even follow it, how can I expect other people to? Change starts with the self . . . self-transformations are the hardest ones. I like me, but I could like myself better. The things I don't like . . . I can change. 16) I have to be assertive. I have to stand up for myself. I can't LET things happen to me. I can either embrace them or repell them. I NEED to take control of my own life and give it guidance and direction. 17) I have to stop rambling and try to say and do more meaningful things. I feel like the most trite, ineffectual, superficial excuse for a human being at times. It's got to stop. 18) Most importantly, right now, I need to shut up. Some fluff for those of you who need it after that entry:
Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 03:02 a.m. on Wednesday, January 16, 2002
Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 11:34 p.m. on Tuesday, January 15, 2002 I'm in a state of shock right now. I haven't been checking my mailing lists lately so I decided to check them tonight and I just discovered that a very active member on one of the lists I'm on committed suicide on the 6th. *Swallows* I think I might have exchanged all of one or two e-mails with this person and I certainly didn't know him well but the loss saddens me. Please, if you ever get to that point . . . don't do it. It's not an answer. I once asked my friends in college if they had ever contemplated suicide and I think almost every one said yes, they had at one point in their life. I'm no exception. Sometimes things get rough . . . sometimes things get to the point where you think you just can't handle them, but you know what? You don't have to do it alone. Talk to somebody, think things through . . . taking your own life won't make anything better. It will just take away your chance for any future happiness.
I've spoken my piece. I just hope someone else out there was listening.
 You are Edward Wong Hau Pepelu Tivrusky the Fourth A strange and fun loving kid. You are an expert computer hacker and have all the really important, meaningful dialog in the series :). Which Cowboy Bebop Character Are You? Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 12:48 a.m. on Tuesday, January 15, 2002
Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 03:31 a.m. on Monday, January 14, 2002 Jay-chan's coming! Jay-chan's coming!!! ^__________^
HOORAY!!!! Blah. There's always some kind of blog war going on, it seems. But I suppose that's inevitable due to the very nature of a blog and the fact that people are *different* and there are bound to be, as one GSI put it, "personality clashes." And, of course, humanity is stupid and illogical and what makes sense to one person might not necessarily make sense to another person. Hmmm, or it might make sense but be directly opposed to that other person's sense/sensibilities. If we were all Vulcans it'd be much simpler. Not necessarily better, mind you, but simpler. Strike that. Never mind. We'd all just be arguing with pointy ears. Oh, and seeing as I forgot to mention this in my previous post, yes, I am a Trip x T'Pol shipper (nicely fitting in with my mentions of Vulcans, natch, because I be a rambler and a rambling I be) and, DAMN, I scare myself sometimes. >_< But if T'Pol ends up with Archer I SWEAR I'll torch and burn down Paramount myself.
Oh. Happy the Hippo says "Hi."
I'm sitting right now with Happy the Hippo (Beanie Babie, that is) sitting on my head, as he has been for the past several hours. And I'm presently VERY disturbed by all the incest in traditional fairy tales. >_< Especially upon finding it in "Thousand Furs" which I've always liked. And all the stuff in Sleeping Beauty I already knew about but I forgot about the ogress mother-in-law and the cannibalism somewhere. >_< At any rate . . . I've been reading "Snow White and Rose Red" and will work on fanfiction later. I hope you're feeling better Onee-chan.
And here's to hoping that L.V. isn't being TOO horrible to you, Onee-san. ^_^ I have a cast for the first story for my webcomic. And they're cuuuute! LOL. And it's not my regular drawing style AT ALL. O_o;;; But they're cute . . . and fairly easy to draw, so I guess it's not *too* bad. And the girls have the WORLD's weirdest fashion sense . . . XD XD XD Too bad my scanner's at school or else I would scan in the cast pic.
Now that a cast's assembled, the plot will come on its own. TokyoFish's failing was that I could not draw the men properly. Otherwise, a more detailed plot would have followed for that too . . . Well, I took the Harry Potter Character selector and . . .
I'm HERMIONE? Reeeeaaaallllllly? ^^;;; And to think, I said that if one of the main three was the one who was gonna be axed in the final book, I'd mind the least if it was Hermione. (Because, obviously, Harry can't die - at least, in conventional storydom, seeing as killing the main character is usually avoided in children's books. And that, of course, leaves Ron and Hermione. And I'm frankly just more fond of Ron. ^^;;;) Happy New Year! I'd liked mention that if you wanna see what I've been up to you can check Golden Apples. Feedback, por favor? I've had a splitting migraine for the past two days and been feeling rather ill to boot along with visiting the cemetary and my grandmother and seeing my dad off to the airport shuttle and feeling altogether exhausted and under the weather, so I haven't done to much but mindlessly watch my brother play FFVIII (which he got for Christmas) and fall asleep, so you must forgive me for not getting to "IAL" as promised. Hopefully I'll get a new part out by the end of the week . . . Hmm, but dunno, see . . . I'm off to watch LotR tomorrow. (FINALLY!) And there's the mall on Wednesday. But seeing as these two activities prolly mean that I have to get up before noon, there's a good possibility of me gettting some work done. ^________^ Oooh, forgot to mention that I discovered that one of my secret linkers is very nice indeed! *Waves* Hello, Firetigeress! Some search engine referrer madness: Apparently, I'm indexed under female racists on msn search. O_O;;;; I really wish search engines were a BIT better at their job. >_< "Gohan diaries?" Is this a fanfic or something? <-confused. For the person searching for the MoonChild song Escape, you can probably find it on an mp3 swapping program. I found my copy on LimeWire after *much* effort on my part. >_< And if whoever it was searching for the song for "Sexy Commando" finds it . . . lemme know. 'Kay? Same goes for anyone searching for the Gokinjo Monogatori opening. ^_^ And WHO are Miko and Hayama, pray tell? Because someone keeps searching for this coupling! Anyone? What SERIES??? And as for the "female sexy buns" search . . . errrm, go away? Some social blogging: Shannako I LOVE your new layout! Very nice!! Yoshi I wish you'd blog . . . It's been so long. ;_; Onee-chan, I'm sorry the card was already expired. --; Did you get my package yet? I'm hoping it won't take weeks (months?) like last time. >_< Merritt! *Bounce bounce* So when *did* you get my package? 'Cause it shoulda been there before Christmas, since we sent it out right when I got back from school! >_< I mean, we sent it priority!!! It's getting slower than regular mail . . . Sheesh. Anyways, I don't remember if it was a rice-cooker in that long ago joke of ours, but that was the only box we had that was big enough, so O_o;;;;. And I couldn't resist buying you another giraffe. Just because he's cute and cuddly! ^^;;; I promise to curb my giraffe-buying habits in the future, 'kay? LOL.
Mmmm. Off to do something else now before bed . . . Not sure what exactly. Maybe I'll write? That'd be a shocker. ^^;
 Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz Kero stuffed a muffin down Suppi's throat at 12:18 a.m. on Sunday, December 30, 2001 Oooh . . . iwis . . . tellurian. Been looking through the dictionary and stumbled across these. <- is easily amused. Anyone know how to use "iwis" in a sentence? It's an adverb and means "certainly" or "assuredly" but I just can't see a sentence flowing like "Thomas will iwis pick up eggs on the way home." ^^; And tellurian is such a sweetie of a word. An alternate of "earthling!" Meep! What fun! And another word I'll put down just so I'll remember to use it at a later date - true-born. Oooh, such a loverly ring to that one. Hmmmm, talked to tech support and there's more freaking stuff I have to do, went to the library, which is LOUSY - seeing as they don't even separate their fiction sections into things like "Science Fiction" or "Mystery" or "Biography" but simply have "Fiction," "Nonfiction," and "Children's." Hmmmph. Their selection is larger than last year's library, however, but not by much. Half the library seems to be out on loan, though, and none of the books I wanted to read were in. >_< But I got others. *SIGH* Oooh, finished the first Harry Potter book today. Which reminds me that the library has about ten copies of each book (not counting Korean versions) which are either out or "Missing, assumed lost." About half fit into the latter category. I think that's just pathethic, stealing Harry Potter books from the library? Why don't you go out and BUY them if you want them so badly??? I mean, it's not just one, it's 3 or 4 of each. O_o;;; Did a little novel-writing today and realized that, dammit, I can only write up to "IAL:GB" Episode 4 since I don't know what I wrote in 6 and 5 has to link up to it . . . But that's okay. (And this should really go in the 'fic blog.) Mmmm. Wight. Hrrrrrmmmmmm. Archaic words are FUN! (Obsolete ones, too!) Oooh, it's got TWO meanings. Vaunt-courier. Hmmm. And then there's wickiup. Mm. And witan. And wold. And wit as a verb. (To wit.) Williwaw. Windage. And windjammer is an actual word AND a boat. XD XD XD And those are only the Ws! XD
Yes, I'm having too much fun . . . and I really wanna start sprinkling more verbiage in my writing. It's time I expanded my (and everybody else's) vocabulary, after all. But I shall try not to be too obscure. After all, if no one understands AT ALL, what good is that? Blah. This whole vacation has been Hell on Wheels, or thereabouts at any rate. Christmas was spent in a van on the way back from Vegas. Much time has been wasted in doctor and optometrist's offices and such . . . I have to call tech support tomorrow . . . FUN. And for the record, let me state that at least one member of the housekeeping staff of the Luxor is pure, unadulterated, EVIL! Of the towel-whacking, furniture-abusing, cell-phone-yakking, non-vacuuming, dirty-rag-on-top-of-bed-leaving, shampoo-stealing, 6-minute-long-chat-with-some-dude-at-the-door variety. AND WHILE PEOPLE ARE IN THE BLOODY ROOM WAITING FOR HER TO FINISH. Oh, and did I mention that her "ten minutes" stretched into thirty in which she did a LESS than adequate job? No? Well, I have now. Grrrrrr . . . Well, at least I started and finished American Gods while on the road. And let me tell you something, if ever there was a book to read while driving cross-country (not that we drove cross-country but if ever you do) that would be the one. Ahhhhhhh . . . very satisfactory. ^_^ Um, but I fear that I hit upon at least part of the plot myself several years back . . . Or, I have a main character Kismet Moonshadow (and yes, that is who I filched my own pen name from, thanks) who rather shares some Shadow-like qualities . . . (at least in my own head). ^_^;; But then, as my brother said, all the good themes have been taken already . . . And read Pegasus in Space in the span of two days or so, so all is good. On page 57 of Harry Potter and the Sorceror's Stone as we speak. ^_^ Reading is a good thing . . . and it's been faaaaaar too long since I've engaged in it. Off to the library tomorrow after yelling myself hoarse for several hours with tech support >_<. I shall see if they have Portrait in Sepia and the other Harry books. That ought to tide me over for a while. Lala. I hope everyone's vacations are going better than mine. I will also get cracking on writing tomorrow (I hope). Plots are brewing, characters are about ready to spring back to life, and I'm determined to get something done. And if I can't get damnable Episode Six of "IAL:GB" to download from that dratted e-mail, I will attempt to at least write through Episode Five and some "C&K" too . . . because I bloody well want to! ^_^ And to my Onee-chan, I do hope you've got everything sorted out, dear. I think the best course is the truth . . . After all, there was the whole computer fiasco. Please don't make yourself unhappy. I'm sure your parents will understand. Happy Holidays, everyone, because, dammit even though my parents haven't bothered to get me anything so far this year, it's still the thought that counts!
"Keep Christmas in your hearts . . . everyday."
Yesh, I'm home. And I'd just like to ditto everything Gina said in her last post. Lines, rain (+hail), no sleep, less than 1 hour nap, sleeping at home, and all . . . And most of her previous post's lists too. O_o; And my connection is sucky and my cellphone isn't working . . . so I can't call certain people who I need to CALL! >_< And one of the IAL:GB episodes I was working on and e-mailed myself (so I can work on it at home) refuses to download from mailcity. Arrrrrgggghhhh!!! Oh, and I will be gone for the next four days or so . . . because, JOY, guess who gets to go to Las Vegas now? >_< What IS it with Asian families and gambling for the holidays, I ask you?! Now, if I actually KNEW any of those bloggers who live in L.V. it might not be so bad . . . but I don't. >_<
But, anyways, everyone have a Merry Christmas, and Happy Hanukkah, a Cool Kwanzaa, etc. etc. and a Happy New Year! ^_^ Happy Holidays, minna!
Waaaaaiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!! Talked to Ninx-chama on the phone today!!! XD XD XD And there was MUCH rejoicing! ^________^ Oooh, and she impressed me with her knowledge of Egyptian mythology, and Escaflowne, and Utena (right down to the symbolism). O_O And for me, who is *not* in any way, shape, or form, a deep person (not for lack of trying - just from an engrained inability to see beneath the surface of things without outside prompting and/or rare personal epiphanies. XD) AHH! Just remembered I forgot to ask her what she wants me to attempt to draw as fanart. >_< Um, I but I think I have an idea . . . *evil grin* Too bad I'm such a sucky artist. ^^; So, for anyone who was wondering . . . NINX IS COOL!!!!!!! XD XD XD And, haHA! I am GOING TO MAKE HER FINISH WRITING THINGS, yes, I am! XD XD XD (But I'm sure she's going to do the same for me. ^^;)
Speaking of which, I must run off and pack now, as well as upload 'fic bits to my webpage so I can write more at home. Toodles.
Oh, and while I'm at it . . . for my own personal reminiscing in the future . . . All Stats GSIs are really secret agents, and the Professors are the mad scientists, and *breaks into song*: "Secret AAA-gent DICE! Secret AAA-gent Dice!" Fuzzy dice complete with sunglasses, trenchcoat, and fedora. What could be better? ^_^ Yesh, my brain melted somewhere along the line . . . Oooh, and finally sent out your package today, Onee-chan! No card, sorry. I didn't have time to find one I liked. ^^;;;; All the ones I saw were *extremely* ugly . . . O_o;
Merritt, I'm gonna hurry and burn off the rest of your cds (since I AM going home tomorrow), but I think the one ep of Initial D was corrupted, so I'm gonna hafta burn it again. >_< And I'm gonna send you the DVD rip-quality Fruits Basket encodes. I have 1-4 and by the end of the school year I know I'll have more Furuba (don't know how much, but . . .), so I'll just send that now. Oh! And by the end of the year I ought to have gotten my hands on some Hikaru no Go eps, so, wait for that for your birthday, okay? ^_^; I am done with exams Yes, I am Yes, I am
And they slaughtered me quite thoroughly. -_-;
SHIT. Okay, sorry, this was just too priceless to ignore. Apparently, somebody found my fanfiction page by searching for: "a dangerous affair about vampires sailor moon fanfiction" XD XD XD XD XD Nope, sorry, won't be seeing any vampire and Sailor Moon crossovers from me . . . XD
And, um, back to studying. Um, okay. Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation. {What, again?!}
Your brief psychological profile in your past life: Do you remember now? {Not really, but that's okay. ^_~} Gina-P where do you find these things?! (And what were you doing up that late?! O_o;;;
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