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The Day The trees outside my dad's workplace sounded like the ocean with all their leaves rustling in the breeze. It was really beautiful out today and I even got to look at water in the Bay (which was greenish and icky, but still sparkly ^_^). Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Saturday, August 11, 2001 12:39 a.m.
Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Friday, August 10, 2001 02:07 p.m.
Blogging at My Dad's workplace Shannako, well, I've been gushed at a *little* but never in a blog. ^_- Ah, have you heard from Ninx-sama recently? I wrote her awhile back and still no reply. :( Ah, and I finally fixed up the ol' 'fic blog and put up a link. It looks a bit better now, thank goodness! Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Friday, August 10, 2001 01:02 p.m.
Oh, I forgot to mention: And I caught Gormenghast on KTEH the other day and it was, um, weird. Poor Steerpike. (So he's crazy and evil, your point?) "Cat-thrower." XD XD XD XD Ah, and the Kindaichi episode was Miyuki-solves-a-mystery! ('Cause she got mistaken for Kindaichi, natch. "I, Miyuki, will find the real killer on Hajime-chan's grandpa's name!!!!" *LOL* Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Wednesday, August 8, 2001 10:41 p.m.
YEAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! Anywho, worked on the novels a little the other day (no, really), labeled my burned cds today and attempted to clear more space on my computer, went into EXTREME bouts of fangirlishness with regard to Shaoran *^^*, and wanted to mention to Shannako that I've never been gushed at in a blog before (and I think I'll pass on that offer ^^;;;) but GeneralsxSenshi and ExT are just *fun* to write! ^_^ Um, on a less lovely note, spent on hour(!) on the phone today with someone from College while she tried to pump me for info on major prereqs and nattered on about herself. ^^;;;;; And I get to go back to school in two weeks and hang out with everybody for a whole week . . . Fuuuuuuuuuuuun. >.< *ahem* And unlike everyone else, I am NOT looking forward to going back to school. This semester's gonna be hell. The only thing I AM looking forward to (which, unlike everybody else in the known universe is NOT seeing my friends) is cable internet, anime, anime club, and holing up in my room to WATCH aforesaid anime. Ah, what an anti-social little bitch I am. ^_^;; (Of course, if I had friends who WATCHED anime, I would be perfectly content with hanging out with them all week . . . But I think I'm stuck with lots of shopping - YUCK!, talking, and things of that nature.) Speaking of my room, I dropped by the other day and there was a CAT in the apartment. (Which is against the rules and when I told my mother she freaked out - allergic - and it was specifically stated that there would be no pets so I was a lil' bit concerned myself. Not that I don't like cats. I do.) Anyway, I managed to scare it because my stupid whistle - attached to my lanyard - is so gosh durn LOUD and jangly. Looking at it I thought its name ought to be Pepper, Caspian, or Smoky in that order, before deciding that if it was my cat I'd name it Caspian, like the sea. Surprise, surprise, his name is Casper and he's only visiting. ^_^; Oh, and there are BUGS in my apartment, and no air-conditioning, and me being one desiring of such creature comforts realize that yes, the fan is coming with me to school. And I still need a writing desk, dammit! because the one we took from my dad's workplace sucks and can only fit the computer. *SIGH* Ehhhhh, I had more enlightening things to say yesterday, but I forgot them all. ^^; Let me just mention that last night's The Young Riders episode was EXCELLENT (Kid proposed, AGAIN!!) ^_^ and I'm pissed that they didn't show the epilogue to 08th MS Team 'cause I wanna know what HAPPENS!!!!! Um, that's it. Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Wednesday, August 8, 2001 09:40 p.m.
*LOL* I managed to hit 100 on Shannako's counter. ^_^ At the moment, I'm actually a bit regretful that I can't drive, because at least then I'd be able to get around when I want to. *SIGH* Taking a look at the blogs I read, it's really quite amazing how many people live in the Bay Area, or in LA for that matter. (Mostly the Bay Area.) But I'm going to be spending lots of time in both next year, most probably. Hello, fellow Bay-Area dwellers! *waves* It'd be nice to meet you in person. ^_^ You all seem like interesting people. Oh, and what's up with main characters not dying but losing limbs instead? Is losing a limb = 1 character death in terms of impact, agony, etc. in a storyline? I'll have to mull that over a bit . . . Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Tuesday, August 7, 2001 09:01 p.m.
Lil' rant about courses (extremely skippable and non-entertaining) Oooh, and I'm itchy all over 'cause the *bleeping* bugs have been BITING! I remembered stuff to talk about. I tried calling Small Angel yesterday but no one picked up and she's leaving tomorrow and I won't get to meet up with her. ;_; I also went into a nice fit of hysterics on Thursday (signing up for classes) because I couldn't get through for a while, and ran screaming through the house. (I managed to startle the grad student's brother and later I scared like a billion pigeons away from a neighboring rooftop.) When I finally got on I panicked and signed up for the wrong class, but whatever, I'm stuck with it now. And dammit if I don't have to get up at 9:00 or 9:30 AM EVERY FRICKIN' WEEKDAY MORNING! UGH! And I don't get lunch until 2:00 on Wednesdays, and I DON'T EAT BREAKFAST. -_-;;;; Maybe I should start? Anyways, I went temporarily insane and was considering double majoring in Psychology and Legal Studies with a minor in Anthropology or maybe even tripling with Sociology? Since I haven't taken Psych 1, Sociology 1, OR anything in Legal Studies, I think I'm jumping the gun here . . . Ugh. But at the moment I'm still working at fulfilling the prereqs for Psych and Legal Studies. ^^;;;; Problem: If I DO double, I'll end up with (I calculated) about 181 units. 120 is the minimum for graduating. Are they going to kick me out? O_o;;;; And I STILL wanna take Japanese, but I don't know when I'm gonna get to it. And I haven't any light fluffy courses this semester. ;_; I'm stuck with Stats 2, MCB 64(?), Psych 1, History 5 (European), and Anthropology 3. Hmmmmm. I see . . . LOTS of reading and writing and oodles of unparalleled HORROR ahead. (Note: Math, Science, etc. are NOT my strong suits.) BTW, if anyone goes to Berkeley and is in my class . . . Let me know, okay?! Please? I need someone to poke me at random intervals so I won't fall asleep. The only good thing about taking Anthro instead of Sociology is at least I don't have three finals on the same day . . . Oh, and the closet is kind of stuffy and uncomfortable. I've been tossing and turning which is HIGHLY unlike me since I usually sleep perfectly still. Kind of like a corpse. ^^; Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Saturday, August 4, 2001 04:29 p.m.
Something to Say? Finally, an opportunity to blog! (And yes, they're still here . . . ^^;;;;;;) Ah, firstly a big hello to Shannako! ^_^ Thanks muchly for linking and reading. It's much appreciated! (And yes, 'Elios is a hottie! *HEART* Now, then, Tin-sama I'm rather embarrassed you read that. ^^;;; I wrote that, oh, a good, four years ago? *Ehehehe* I really do love "Saber Rider and the Star Sheriffs" though! It was the first anime I ever saw and I had a big crush on Fireball! ^_^; I think Yarol's 'fics are much better than mine, however, and if you'd like a link I'll send it to you. ^_^ And, um, oh, gosh, you *know* there's just soooo much to blog about when you can't, but now that I can . . . I can't, um, think of anything? O_o;;; Ah, I'm rooting for KarenxElindore in 08th MS and that's . . . all I can think of right now. Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Saturday, August 4, 2001 03:40 p.m.
Stress Meter Rising! *Sends out soothing thoughts to Jay-chan* I hope things will be better for you, and the thesis mate, and that your school life will go more smoothly, and the luck wheel will hurry up and turn!!! Feel free to rant to me (If you ever find the time, and remember, if you *do* find the time, and you can do something more worthwhile for your health - like sleeping, for example - do that instead! I don't mind!). Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Tuesday, July 31, 2001 11:59 p.m.
Attack of the Creepy Crawlies! This is my philosophy on life: Do not invade my personal space and I will not be forced to squish you. If you are a spider and are within ten feet of me, I'm sorry, you must die anyway. *Ahem* So, yes, came back from LA in more or less one piece. Mother is now going to rent a 60 year old house, and I am not going to have a room. O_o;;;; She's stealing my room furniture 'cause my dad's taking theirs to Utah! Oh, the humanity of it all!!! *Bashes head against counter* Oh, and yes, the house has a totally overgrown and dilapidated backyard with fruit trees and bees the size of strawberries. *Nods head* Did I mention it's one street over from my relatives? O_o;;;;; Ah, me. Ficcing is going okay, and is all chronicled within my 'fic blog which still looks like total and complete CRAP. LA LA LA. (Therefore, no link will be forthcoming until it is de-crapified.) Um. Grad student person AND family coming tomorrow so I will be sleeping in my parents' walk-in closet. O_o;;;;; You would not *believe* how often I get to sleep in closets . . . *SIGH* Ooooh, J_______ called yesterday long-distance from a payphone in Toronto! ^_^ We talked for a while (unfortunately she called during dinner, but I wasn't all that hungry anyway) and things were luverly. Amazing how when some people call I'm not annoyed at all and when OTHER people call, I just want to strangle them with the phone cord. ^^;;;; Gah, I'm such an anti-social person! But I really, really, REALLY HATE talking on the phone if it's not with someone I like talking on the phone with. Ho hum. In other news, I must pick some classes to take for next semester. BLECH! Ah, and I must finish reading the PSME manga. ^_^ Oh, and I'm TOTALLY addicted to Kindaichi and I didn't figure out who the murderer was until near the end and I didn't figure out who the REAL Phantom Gentleman Thief was AT ALL! ^_^ *Hehe* Oh, and I cried. O_o;;; Yes, I know . . . But the conclusion of last week's two-parter was SOOO tragic! (Actually, the conclusion of every case seems pretty tragic . . . -_-;;;) Okay then, what else, anything else? Ah, got sent two viruses through hotmail but I love McAfee, don't you? This leads me to wonder, however, who exactly has my e-mail address in their inbox . . . because I've never heard of these people before. O_o;;;; Oh, and I don't know how to deal with people who e-mail me and DEMAND a new part of a fanfic. It seems a little strange to me that someone I don't even know is e-mailing me and telling me that they want a new part and I have to write it to make them happy. Now, I love people writing and saying they like what I write and want a new part soon, and to please come out with a new part soon, and, you said you'd come out with a new part soon but that was a year ago you big liar (^^;;;;;), but to expect me to write something because THEY demand it, because THEY want it . . . It's a bit much. I'm not saying it's not nice having a fanbase. (I worry I little sometimes, thinking I've lost them all.) It *IS* nice. It's also nice to get feedback and C&C. To see that people actually enjoy reading stuff you've written and want to see more . . . I get annoyed when something I write doesn't get any feedback at all, I admit that. And yes, I write things for other people to enjoy, but I write them for ME to enjoy too. And if I don't enjoy the writing process, why do it? If I'm not enjoying writing 50 pages for one episode of "IAL:TLB" for example, you're not going to force me to write it. Because if I do, it's going to be trash, and nothing more than that. When I write, I want it to be from the heart, something I can be proud of, something that I had fun writing, enjoyed writing, HAD to write, and that will be something that the readers can like as much as I like it. That's why some things come out excruciatingly slowly. That's why my attention wanders from 'fic to 'fic. That's why I can't write it, beginning-middle-end and have to write everything beginning-end-middle. The starting point and the ending point. I know where they have to be and what they are. The fun is in the journey. (Oh, God, now I'm making life analogies!) Anyways, that's my rant for today. ^_^ Encouragement is nice. Beratement is okay. You demanding something from me that I'm not willing to give is NOT OKAY. Love ya! Bye. ^_- Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Tuesday, July 31, 2001 11:23 p.m.
Pack a Picnic Basket, We're Off to Hell! I don't wanna GOOOOOOOO! *pout* BTW, Merr, your Fin CG is cute! *heart* ^_^ Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Thursday, July 26, 2001 11:37 p.m.
Just In Case Being incredibly paranoid (especially since it wouldn't start up four times in a row yesterday), I've been uploading all my current 'fic files to my geocities account . . . And I've been trying to e-mail all my old e-mails to myself (so I can get them on the other computer) but none of my online e-mail accounts are big enough. -_-;;;;; Oh, and the pic's not working 'cause virtue.nu's out to lunch. I think. Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Wednesday, July 25, 2001 05:03 p.m.
:( *SIGH* -_-; Oh, and did I mention that the dub version of Mon Colle Knights is like gibberish on CRACK?! I dunno what the original was like, aside from a few clips, but I think it must have been more coherent. I also find it annoying that they turned the Star of David into some weird symbol. -_-;;;; Also Koromon/Jim Hawking's VA actually playing the voice of the girl freaks me out. And so does DemiDevimon/V-mon/Ken's VA being the voice of the guy. Oh, and the villain STILL looks like Asagi to me. Only dumber, of course. -_-;;; Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Tuesday, July 24, 2001 02:17 a.m.
What a Day! I'm wondering if Merritt got her package yet . . . and if she did is she gonna open it or wait until her actual birthday? Hmmmm . . . I had quite a day. My brother threw a hissy fit this morning and screamed at me in v. psychotic manner, then I got mad and, becoming engulfed in a fit of rage I screamed back at him so loudly that I made the inner linings in my throat raw and sore. It hurts to swallow . . . Then we mutually didn't speak to each other until Mobile Suit Gundam started (first day) and then we were so busy laughing at 70s-era animation that he apologized and assured me that his legos were like mind-altering drugs and made him cranky and insane. Later on, I was cleaning out a rice-cooker bowl thing in the sink when he called excitedly at me to come quick because they were showing a MS 08th commercial. So, I rushed forward, and immediately tripped over the fully open dishwasher door. So I managed to maim and partially cripple myself, and have some lovely not-fully scraped knees and steadily purpling bright pink bruises all over my legs. Let this be a lesson to others! It takes a certain amount of extreme stupidity to fall on top of a dishwasher door! -_-;;;;; Oh, and then I burned myself on the first left hand knuckle on our toaster oven when I was taking over him in the task of toasting slices of bread. -_-;;;;; Yes, I am in pain. *SIGH* We finished watching Lodoss, and the second disc's quality seemed better at first (I think they outline the white subtitles now) but quickly degraded. Oh, and they don't include any openings or endings . . . and the yucky English credits are still on the end scene and I DON'T LIKE IT. The series ends well, though, and I still like it. I guess for $50 for the whole series it was an okay buy. Whatever. We hafta go watch MS 08th Team at 12:30 and I hafta watch The Young Riders ('cause I'm trapped in my fast-receding youth). ^^;;;; I *really* wanna do a Basara layout, but I'm lacking in pics and ideas . . . Only, I think it's gonna be called "Wind Be Not My Enemy." I really want Merritt to draw a pic of Ken as Sarasa. Pigtails and all. ^_- Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Monday, July 23, 2001 11:23 p.m.
Bridget-style Entry Ne, Merr, Chiaki IS hot, isn't he? Though, I do prefer manga version Chiaki since he looks older and all. ^_- I highly recommend the KKJ manga! Basara manga too . . . ^_^ Horror upon horrors. In retrospect have discovered burning desire to own Basara manga. All 27 volumes. Despite having read them all. Now must find job to get money to enable self to support ever-expanding anime & manga addiction. ^^;;; Personal note: Am v. lazy, ever-fattening blob. Have done nothing productive all weekend . . . with regard to fanfiction, etc. -_-;;; Just finished reading "Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason." The bloody library STILL didn't have the first one when I went on Thursday. Oh, and I was right . . . Not one, single Robin McKinley book. >_< Family dropped Mum off at the airport on Saturday, went to Cupertino for breakfast, mall (forgot to bring money, but bought new Animerica Extra and stared longingly at manga - WTF?! Pokemon Adventures vol. 3 is already out? Clover looks nummy.), and returning Basara and borrowing the first 11 vols of PSME. Then went to Winchester Mystery House which is right across from dome-shaped movie theatres in manner of large bomb-shelters or such. House was not overly mysterious. Found it rather lacking in oddities compared to (overly - it seems) high expectations. Also did not feel presence of spirits and was rather disappointed. Guide either had long night and was extremely exhausted or bad case of cramps. (Personally think 'twas latter.) Must complain. HOTMAIL is not only hideous now, is also 1.5 billion times slower. -_-;;;; Intense desire to hate in manner of hating FF.net. *GROWLS* Have also been in extremely antisocial mood with regard to College friends who keep calling and trying to arrange get-togethers. 1) nothing doing because of car trouble and anxious mother 2) aforesaid mother is now in LA 3) There is, repeat, NO WAY I can get myself to a BART station as 1) Do not drive 2) Mother gone 3) Father works 4) Refuse to walk many miles and/or hitchhike Am also in antisocial mood as enjoy solitary aspect of summer vacation wherein individuals are allowed to be lazy and do nothing without having to bother with associating with people have been associating all year with. Now that am detached from situation realize that was too obsessed with "friends," and let them take advantage of me because of my own low self-esteem and need to cling to people. Realize that disastrous attempt at romantic relationship (which now completely over, thank you very much - is great relief) and clingy/dependant behavior was not good for self. Need supportive, non-self obsessed friends (in addition to current ones, of course, as have no intention of dropping them in manner of hot coal and/or hot potato) and Mark Darcy/Colin Firth-esque male presence as opposed to childish immaturity and weirdness. Also, am still bitter about birthday debacle. (Regretful tendency on part of self - but, ah well.) Will attempt to develop sense of self-worth, independence, and assertiveness - which will be needed in legal profession as probably will not be so successful as to be able to afford sessions with someone holding the job I am qualified to maintain in all but technicalities (i.e. psychiatrist) because of rampart anime/manga addiction. ^^;;;; Also, anti-social tendencies include: extreme distaste for talking on phone in perky manner when caller has suddenly lost all enthusiasm after realizing that get-together is impossible, talking on phone in general with person who shares NO common interests, talking on phone when would much rather be doing something else, talking on phone after being interrupted watching TV/reading/typing, talking on phone with someone talked to the other day with nothing new but new offer to get together which caller ought to understand is IMPOSSIBLE, talking on phone to person one gets the sinking feeling is harboring suspicions that one does not want to get together at all and is just making up excuses (well, sometimes, but that was my mother's doing since the car had broken down the other day and she didn't want a repeat performance, so I had to say it was in the shop), talking on phone in general, talking on phone to people one is not overly close to but who turn out to be one's closest college friends leading one to wonder what the hell happened? since they know nothing about you and you know EVERYTHING about them, and well, things like that. Which is not to say that if certain friends with similar interests who one e-mails on regular basis and feels close to were to call, one would also feel anti-social tendencies, because college friends are a category unto themselves and are set aside from other category of friends, online and other inclusive. *Hint hint* Um, yes. So if anyone other than me can figure out what I said . . . that would be good. ^_^; Mmmm, Ichimatsu and Kikune are KAWAII together! Must enthuse for a bit. Hmmm, wonder if Merritt will be getting package tomorrow and will like it? (Note: Yes, it is the same box that you sent me my Christmas package in, but I couldn't find any others the right size. The labels and contents have been preserved, however. Oh, and I wanted to send it with one of the labels you made me, but I think I accidently packed them and took them to my apartment already . . . ^^;;;;;) Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Monday, July 23, 2001 12:29 a.m.
Quick Note to Merritt Eeek! Gotta go . . . Kindaichi's on! Messy thoughts flew out of my head on Saturday, July 21, 2001 10:59 p.m. |
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